Disappointments....

We went walking at Springbank Park yesterday. It was so lovely. We saw ducks, a Heron, a Loon like bird, a huge brown raccoon foraging and yellow finches. We sat in the shade on a bench at the water's edge and enjoyed looking at the river and the golfers across the way.

As we were walking I wondered if it is this feeling of aliveness and oneness with nature and beauty that we might miss when we let go of our body and move into an energy only experience of living. Do we miss food, and touch and loving?

I commented to Bob that my dad, his mom and dad could all answer that question for me (they've all made their transition) but unfortunately haven't been able to communicate anything.

There are so many things I wonder. One is, I wonder how I let myself get attached to outcomes and end up feeling disappointed. To be in the world but not of it. To not be moved by whichever way the wind blows is a goal of mine. To stay calm and happy and know there is a divine order unfolding.

Pic.. She is in my yard... makes me think of two worlds coliding.. the angelic and the human.